I want to experience a deep, rich, very fulfilling prayer life. But I often find myself frustrated and disappointed when it comes to my connection with the Lord. Why???
My lack is not the result of His withholding from me. I don't experience abiding connection because I tolerate distractions. Yes, I am blaming the environment around me for preventing intimacy with God.
I can't have it because the people, the circumstances, the pressures control me. That's a big LIE. But this is what I tell myself. I don't get to be close to the Lord because it's too hard. Life is too demanding.
I can't have it because the people, the circumstances, the pressures control me. That's a big LIE. But this is what I tell myself. I don'at get to be close to the Lord because it's too hard. Life is too demanding. Comfort begs me to avoid chasing after my heart's desire. I give end and my day ends in front of the TV with snacks all over my shirt. Ugh! Not again!
How do we courageously go after the desires of our heart? It begins with receiving not doing. I can't will my way into a deeper prayer life. I don't have the power on my own to make it happen. The answer is opening my heart surrender, submission, yielding to the Lord. That's where the battle begins. It's my will vs. His will. He wants to pour into me but if I am resisting Him I can't experience His leading.
I want comfort. I want to stop thinking. I want to escape the stress of my life. I want pleasure to replace responsibility. Comfort gives me a shield to hide behind.
I need courage. Courage gives me the strength to take a risk, to open my heart, to allow someone to lead me. I need a leader who is stronger than I am to help me. It doesn't start until I am willing to receive.
Courage is a willingness to risk everything to fulfill destiny. Comfort is the stuff I seek to avoid the growth I need to live on purpose.